20040922
[Feeling: HypeR!]
I realize i am almost always hyper haha. But that's okay! Right?
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Science was fun! Effects of smoking. Pictures! Pictures! -watches as others throw up- Wahhaaha.
Oh btw, if you search "NYGH" in the google image search bar, you get this picture of a woman covered in blood from Cinemorgue.com or something. Her name's Anna Nygh. oO
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Barf and Mei have the crazy ideas. They were trying to throw coins into the pond from our classroom window. So everytime they would throw and miss. And then run downstairs, pick it up and come upstairs and try again. Hahaha so funny. Oh then they got sick of going down to pick the coins up so we cut the tassels off the Chinese New Year decoration thing and tied them to together.
haha it can reach Liza if she's standing downstairs but she's gotta jump haha. Oh dear i think we need more tassels. -wink-
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Today went out with Beng and Chandi after school! Haha. Went KAP and we bought a lot of ice cream haha. And we were messing around with the ice-cream and Seniors were like sitting next to us and thinking we were crazy haha.
Oh then we went Beng's house! And crazy Chandi threw bread and coins into the fish tank! Poor fish nearly died whaahha. Oh and WE HID BENG'S SOCKS IN THE FREEZER! AHAHAHAHAHA. Poor Beng nearly died. And we locked Beng in his house. And we hid Beng's School shoes. And we raided Beng's Fridge. Poor Beng. -snigger-
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Self-mutilation is bad. Do NOT do it. Just because you feel like it. Just beacuse you feel it can do "stuff" for you. Like it matters when you're totally in pain and stuff.
Anyone who's been doing it, stop right now. Like now. Like don't do it anymore. Cause it's not just bad for you. It also hurts others around you who care for you. Those who hurt when they see you in that state.
So don't. You hurt others, maybe even more than you hurt you.
was wasting time @ 9/22/2004 08:25:00 PM
20040917
[Feeling: Don't Matter.]
Special Entry! Contains all the Hillsong lyrics from You Are My World
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[Your Love Is Beautiful]
You surrounded me with songs of praise
You have brought me to this place
Where your love and grace
Move within my life
Now Your message is my light
Your love is beautiful
Your love is beautiful
It's the reason why I sing
All around the world,
Let the praise begin
All around the world,
Let the praise begin
I am planted here by the waters
And I'm living for the King
I have found my peace in the house of God
This is where I'm meant to be
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[God is Great]
All creation cries to You
Worship in Spirit and in truth
Glory to the Faithful One
Jesus Christ, God's son
All creation gives You praise
You alone are truly great
You alone are God who reigns
For eternity
God is great and His praise
Fills the earth, fills the heavens
And Your name will be praised
Through all the world
God is great, sing His praise
All the earth, all the heavens
Cause were living for the glory
Of Your name
Glory of Your name
All to You, oh God, we bring
Jesus teach us how to live
Let your fire burn in us
That all may hear
And all may see
Holy is the Lord
The whole earth sings
The whole earth sings
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[All Of My Days]
Proclaim Your awesome power
Tell of mighty deeds
Declare Your future kingdom
Of everlasting peace
And my eyes they look
Unto You always
And I am captured
By your majesty
All of my days
I will sing of Your greatness
All of my days
I will speak of Your grace
All of my days
I will tell of Your wondrous love
Your love in my life
Your love
All Your works will praise You
Your children bless Your name
We speak of all Your goodness
We walk in fields of grace
And my eyes they look
Unto You always
And I am captured
By your majesty
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[Emmanuel]
Together in this place of worship
Your greatness we proclaim
We stand as one in giving You
All glory and acclaim
To You our hearts are open
To You our hands we raise
Come take the place
Of honor in our lives
Emmanuel
Our God is with us
Prince of peace
Mighty one
The ever-living God
See the praises of our savior
Rise to open skies
With the dawning of redemption
Your glory will arise
For You alone are worthy
Here in Zion you are praised
Our Lord and King
Forever You will reign
Emmanuel
Our God is with us
Prince of peace
Mighty one
The ever-living God
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[You Stand Alone]
I will lay me down
At Your feet in worship
And listen to the sweetest sound of all
Oh God You are my God
How my heart it longs for You
I'm thirsty for Your presence in my world
I cry out night and day for more
To hold the majesty of You
My God You stand alone
And I worship at Your throne
I will look to see Your power and glory
Jesus Lord of all
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[Irresistible]
I behold your power and glory
Bring an offering, Come before You
Worship You Lord
In the beauty of Your holiness
Whenever I call You're there
Redeemer and friend
Cherished beyond all words
This love never ends
Morning by morning, Your mercy awakens my soul
I lift up my eyes to see
The wonders of heaven Opening over me
Your goodness abounds
You've taken my breath away, with
Your irresistible love
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[You Are My World]
My father I adore You more
Than anything my heart could wish for
I just want You
And Jesus my beloved savior
Everything I am I owe to You
I owe it all to You
And angels come and adore You
And we Your children worship You
You are my world
You are my God
And I lay down my life for You
You are my Lord
The one I love
No one could ever take Your place
And everything I have I give to You
My Lord, the One I live for
I live for You
And all my days are gifts from You
I pray I'd use them as You want me to
Use them for You
And angels come and adore You
And we your children worship You
You are my world
You are my God
And I lay down my life for You
You are my Lord
The One I love
No one could ever take Your place
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[Everything That Has Breath]
Praise Him in the sanctuary
Praise Him in the mighty heavens
Praise Him
All the earth praise Him
Praise Him in His awesome power
Praise His great and holy name
Praise Him
The whole world praise Him
From the rising of the sun
Let His praise be heard
From the east to the west
And the north to south
Let everything that has breath
Praise the Lord forever
Let everything in my soul
Praise the Lord
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[God So Loved]
God so loved the world
That He gave
God so loved the world
That he gave his only son
Worthy is the Lamb that was slain
Worthy is the Lamb that was slain
He's risen from the dead
He is risen
He's high and lifted up
Heaven and earth adore
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[To You]
Here I stand
Forever in Your mighty hand
Living with Your promise
Written on my heart
I am Yours
Surrendered wholly to You
You set in Your family
Calling me Your own
Now I, I belong to You
Lord I need
Your Spirit, Your word, Your truth
Hear my cry
My deep desire
To know You more
In Your name
I will lift my hands
To the King
This anthem of praise I bring
Heaven knows
I long to love You
With all I am
I belong to You
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[Worthy Is The Lamb]
Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace
Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace
Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb
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[Forever]
I'll Worship at Your Throne
Whisper my own love song
With all my heart I'll sing
For You my Dad and King
I'll live for all my days
To Put a smile on Your face
And when we finally meet
It'll be for eternity
And Oh how wide You open up Your arms
When I need Your love
And how far You would come
If ever I was lost
And You said that all You feel for me
Is undying love
That You showed me through the cross
I'll worship You my God
I'll worship You my God
I love You
I love You
Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with You
Be with You
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[My Best Friend]
Have you heard of the one called saviour?
Have you heard of his perfect love?
Have you heard of the one in Heaven?
Have you heard how he gave his son?
Well I have found this love and
I believe in the son
Show me your way
I believe in the one called saviour
I believe he's the risen one
I believe that i'll live forever
I believe that the king will come
Because I have found this love and
I believe in the son
Show me your way
Jesus you are my best friend and
You will always be
Nothing will ever change that
I believe in the one called saviour
I believe he's the risen one
I believe that i'll live forever
I believe that the king will come
Because I have found this love and
I believe in the son
Show me your way
Jesus you are my best friend and
You will always be
Nothing will ever change that
Jesus you are my best friend and
You will always be
Nothing will ever change that
Jesus you are my best friend and
You will always be
Nothing will ever change that
Nothing will ever change that
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Anyone who wants this can borrow from me. I love this album. It absolutely RuLeZ.
If i didn't know you, Lord, i don't know what i'd do. Thank you for being here with me through it all. Thank you, Lord.
was wasting time @ 9/17/2004 07:52:00 PM
20040913
[Feeling: HyPeR!]
mmmmh. Caffeine is good. Let's all get caffeine people!
[QuotesDavina]Pooh you.[/Quote]
[QuotesDavina]Oh Pooh.[/Quote]
The most shocking.
[QuotesDavina]Stupid Idiot[/Quote] (Referring to ahtsai)
oO
What happened to our poor sweet girl. awwww.
Meanwhile,
My job is done.
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Hahahahha~ Today accompanied Jolyn to SIM cause she wanted to meet Cheryl!
Ahahahahahha~ We like got lost. And then we wanted to go to Eunos to eat ice-cream! So just after seeing her, we dragged jolyn away hahahaha. Gee that was fun.
Kid, you owe me one for this. ;)
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Ohohohohoh i got Mei that album. -grin- I suppose at least she is not as bimbo as Jessica Simpson. Bleah. Got some poster. She looks bEEmbo in that though. Ah well.
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Oof. i think i shall have to learn NEW songs on the guitar. I shall forget that and get focused on the band shtuff. I learned to play Obviously on the guitar! Yay haha.
I WANT A CHARVEL GUITAR. -am sad-
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Sick and Tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin' over myself
Goin' nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
And I took a dive
...
I've been wondering why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe
It's alright
Sunlight
On my face
I wake up and yeah, I'm alive
...
I was so afraid
Of going under
But now
The weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
Down, down, down
You're all I needed
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed
And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted
All that I needed
On the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you
was wasting time @ 9/13/2004 06:54:00 PM
20040907
[Feeling: ..? ]
Yes i've given up so stop bugging me about it. I don't want to get her mad at me for no reason at all.
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Recently I've been
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl
Who's out of this world
Believe me
She's got a boyfriend husband
He drives me round the bend
Cos he's 23 13
He's in the marines related to me
He'd kill me My Daddy..
So many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now
Cos obviously
She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps dragging me in
And I know I never
Will be good enough for her
No no, I never
Will be good enough for her
Gotta escape now
Get on a plane now yeah
Off to L.A somewhere i can afford
And that's where I'll stay
For two years Until i forget her
Put it behind me (i wish)
Go to a place where she can't find me
(she's not looking anyway)
Cos obviously
She's out of my league
I'm wasting my time
Cos she'll never be mine
And I know I never
Will be good enough for her
No no, I never
Will be good enough for her
She's out of my hands
And I never know where I stand
Cos I'm not good enough for her
Cos obviously
She's out of my league
I'm wasting my time
cos she'll never be mine
And I know I never
Will be good enough for her
No no, I NEVER
Will be good enough for her..
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If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realize
You're a loss I can't replace
...
Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause
I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name
...
Time will never change
The things you've told me
After all we're meant to be
Love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad..
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I guess now it's time for me to give up
I feel it's time
Got a picture of you beside me
Got your lipstick mark still on your coffee cup(haha)
Got a fist of pure emotion
Got a head of shattered dreams
Gotta leave it
Gotta leave it all behind now..
Whatever I said
Whatever I did
I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong
Just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood
Unaware but underlined
I figured out this story
It wasn't good
But in the corner of my mind
I celebrated glory
But that was not to be
In the twist of separation
You excelled at being free
Can't you find
A little room inside for me
...
Whatever I said
Whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong
Just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood
I guess now it's time
That you came back for good
(though it'll never happen..)
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How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking
Every breath with you
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we've shared
The laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
...
I wish I could just make you
Turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And there's
Nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
Oh there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is
All I can do
And that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now
'Cause l'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is
Against all odds
That's the chance I've qot to take
Take a look at me now..
was wasting time @ 9/07/2004 09:14:00 PM
20040906
[Feeling: Dejected..?]
Okay the hike was fine i guess. Was fun up the mountain cos Ms Sab was like really crazy and she made us sing and cheer haha.
Got back to school a little late and ran up for my history test but i wsa late so Ms Ong made me take it later anyway. And Mei ran ut of te room and showed me this weird bottle. "Kissing Paint." Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. And Renee was going "Louise!" Not that i would ever use it. -_-ll But i really wouldn't.
Okay then i did the test and our seniors are like really spas haha. Should have seen them man.
Okay then finished the test, saw the crazy people running. Absolutely nuts i tell you. All wet. You horrible. Never call me. I could have easily gone down and picked you all up. Don't want Renee Louise all of them to get sick. But i suppose since i've lived through it so many times, they will too hahaha. Oh well.
They were freezing all through English. Poor them. I could have lent them a shirt but i think they'd probably not want to wear it anyway. Oh well.
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-sigh- Okay. Never mind. I shall drink more milk! =( Ohwell. Okay i tried but it didn't work. Don't think i want her to get more pissed with me. Yep. I'm giving up. Until i grow taller haha.. But that isn't really much of an excuse.. Ahh..
Oh and i say again. i didn't mean to freak her out. Just thought that if i wanted to do it i had to do it properly yeah? So i did.
My life is a major drama serial. Like drama serial. Oh look. It's raining right now..
Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me oh what i fool i've been..
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again..
Even said i'd cut off all my relations to do it. But that won't make hger change her mind.. -sigh- Okay. I'm gonna live with my fate. I'm not gonna force her to do anything she doesn't want to. Just gonna give it up.
But that doesn't mean you can flirt with me.
Constantly girl you're on my mind,
And girl I think about you all of the time
And even though words are hard to say,
Girl, I miss you,
Never thought I'd feel this way..
If you keep on taking,
My heart you'll be breaking
So why do you do this to me..?
You know how I'm feeling
It's you I believe in
Baby can't you see that I need you..?
Every time I see your face
I miss you baby
I want to let you know
You're driving me crazy
I'd do anything to help you to see
I don't think you understand
What you're doing to me..
Every now and then
I want to call you baby
I say a prayer that
You'll come back to me lady..
Life ain't anything alone
Can't you see
You're an angel in my eyes
Everyday that you're closer to me...
Nobody's there
When I call your name,
And nights are cold, girl,
Without your flame.
But if I could girl
I'd make you see.
That I'm sorry,
And that I need you here with me.
...
Every day reminisce with the past
Of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be
When it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast..
There are days that I can't forget
There are things that I now regret.
I was there for you
When you were there for me
And I was thinkin' we were set..
Every night
When I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice
Going round in my head
Think of all the things
I could have done
And all those things
I could have said..
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do,
It took time
But now I've realised how much I'm missing you...
was wasting time @ 9/06/2004 04:52:00 PM
20040903
[Feeling: HyPeR!]
Hahahaha~ JY, i did it. I did it. But she didn't accept. Yet. =( Oh well. I got a rose for her, buddy. I'm gonna try like really hard.
If you're wondering why i'm doing it like this, i think we should do it properly. Like properly. Like yeah. But i suppose it might seem kinda out-of-place but.. yeah.
Ahhhhhhh. I'm gonna try again. I'm not sure how though..
Frankly i didn't mean to do it today. I really didn't mean to. Chan Yi kind of forced me too. Flirting with me pratically the whole day. Hmpf. Just so happened that you guys literally drove me into a corner. And Renee was in front of me so.. You get the idea. I was planning it but not so soon.. =( Oh well.
Anyway Mom gave me her blessings. I think i was on my knees for 7 minutes. Not very long.. But then Ms Chee came in. =( So i tried sticking around for awhile more. But Ms Chee got kinda PMS-y and wanted to start and Renee left. -am sad- I'll make it someday. I will. I promise i will.
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Ohohoh i went to TM. Took a looooooong draaaaaaaggy bus ride. Then we got to TM and i got my rose. haha. I wonder if it'll last till Monday.. Oh well. Never mind. It's okay. i'll just get more if i have to.
Then we went to Yamaha. Wahahaha. I tried this really zai guitar. It was so cool. The feeling and the sound was really great. -am sad- I am so broke. =( But i know i should spend on -someone- and so i shall. Hahahahaha~ Okay nvm.
Anyone got any odd job that i can do? Like clean toilets! Hahaha. Okay nvm. If you want you gotta pay me k. I need money to buy drumset and then electric guitar. Need. Despo liao. But nvm. Renee more impt to me. Haha..
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Daddy i'm not flirty like you. i only want Renee. Don't need so many wives one. Really. I'm devoted. Very devoted.
was wasting time @ 9/03/2004 08:02:00 PM
